crazy passionate meant to be- love.

It's been a while since I updated, truthfully I've had weird crazy dreams but my life has been a little out of control lately, especially my thoughts and I have no been able to gather enough energy or control to write my dreams down. Last night's dream however was special, it's a secondary dream and I will try to make as much sense of it as I can.
There was this guy, never seen him before...the dream itself was short. He was there and I knew him and I were meant to be together, I was inside a car and he was leaving, he was supposed to get in a bus or something, but he kept looking back at me. I didnt know him in my dream and I doubt we had met yet, we were pretty much like strangers just staring at each other, then he came closer and handed me a piece of paper, it looked like a cut out newspaper article, something about a crazy lady with cats but for some reason this was significant to me, it seemed like in another dream I've had, I knew that my one and true love will hand me that piece of paper and that's how I'd know. This blow me away and I felt so overwhelmed with emotion to have found him. He kept walking away and I kept staring at him, he kept looking back at me as I stared at him from the car, then I decided to get out of the car, and he came running for me. We kissed and it was the most increible kiss ever, we were in the car and then I realized someone was stealing the car, so I started to hit the old man stealing the car (which I think it was the guy's) finally, I decided to take whatever I could and jump out of the car, he jumped out first and then I followed with a suitcase and other valuable items like a camera etc. Once we hit the floor we started kissing again, so meaningfully then some girls passed us by and said something and that's all I remember. The moment I woke up, I felt sad because I want to feel that, I want to feel that "I'm crazy about you/cant live without you" passion. I want that, I dont care if it happens now or if I have to wait for it. I dont know who this guy was, I just want and pray that one day I get to feel what I felt inside my dream.

The Quote

A lot of crazy dreams; I dont know what has happened to my dreams but can't seem to remember anything lately. I think I'm going thru a lot these past few weeks and it has obviously affected my subconcious. Last night however I heard this quote loud and clear and it woke me up in the middle of the night, I have never heard it before.

"If you remember someone you forgot; you shall never forget again"

Werewolf

I haven't been able to remember any of my dreams lately; I think is because I've been sick and haven't been sleeping too good. Either way, my dreams last night were very dark. There was blood, there was me and I was a werewolf...the moon will turn me into one but I didnt want to hurt anyone so, before I transformed I told my friends to run as fast as they could once I transformed. It was weird because I would try to hide under trees so the moon light wont touch me, I did feel myself transforming at times but I dont think I ever got to become one. I do remember a lot of running, chasing and hiding.

Alternate universe and the stranger

I'm going to try to put together as much as I can of last night's dream because they were so long and detailed that it's hard for me to put down in paper. I don't think I had any primary dreams because I woke up at 2:00 am and I didnt remember any. Here's my secondary dreams:
I was in an alternate universe, it was a dark and scary world. Random people walked the street and I was with a group of guys, I dont personally know any of them. At some point, I would go from the normal world to the alternate universe by being summerged in water. I would see myself in a capsule or box and it will be under water and I would hold my breath. I walked the streets and ended up in a big store, a bad man opened fire and started shooting randomly with an automatic revolver, I got hit. I felt to the ground and pretended I was dead. Seconds later I saw what had happened, I saw me laying on the floor and the bad man coming to me. He cocked his gun to scare me, I then looked at him and he just walked away. At this point I was narrating this to someone, I think the guy who I will call the stranger. I dont know what happened to the bad man, I think he killed himself after that. Then I was in a forrest, ugly place with different creatures coming at me, I was shooting at them with the same automatic weapon. Then, the stranger , the other guys and I were in an apartment, I had a special bond with this stranger, he kind of watched over me. I was attracted to him and he was attracted to me but he was there to take care of me, he was a mentor. I've never seen this man in my life, he was big and strong and had semi shaved head with dark hair. I was in the apartment and wanted desperately to go back to the "real world" so I figured to do this, I needed to die in the alternate universe. I saw a window and tried to break it, I couldn't the first time. I went back to where the guys were and someone said something to me and I got mad and went back to the window. I punched it open, I heard the stranger saying something to me, like trying to hold me back. I was facing him when I threw myself down the building. I hit the pavement but didnt die. Then, he came out to me and looked at me...there was a child on the street. I somehow realized that the child could go in and out of the alternate universe whenever he wanted and I told the stranger that, he pointed that out to me and I realized that was the secret. Innocense. Innocense could bring you in and out of that horrible universe. Then the stranger came closer to me, I wanted him and he wanted me, I asked him how do I become innocent with all the sex and drugs, he then said you can do both and stopped touching me and moved away.

old friends and the lion

I had a lot of dreams last night; I like to think there're different phases in my dream world. There're the primary dreams which happen in the first few hours after I go to sleep and then there're the secondary dreams which occur when I'm in deep sleep; this doesnt determine how important or meaningful the dreams might be. It's simply my way of organizing my dreams. So, last night my primary dreams included my friend Yuliana who I haven't seen in years but keep up with thanks to facebook, her birthday was on Monday and sent her a bday wish and she asked if we could hang out that day but I had to work. In the dream I also saw her ex boyfriend Gabriel who she went out with at the time our friendship was the strongest. I dont really remember any more details in regards to her. I also had a dream with my friend D who I haven't seen in a couple of months mainly due to some complications in our friendship because of her ways to handle her life style, drugs etc. In the dream she was in a hospital room and she was due to give birth, the room happened to be next to my apartment. I went in and saw her in the bed and then went back to my apartment. A couple of minutes later she came in my apartment, walking around saying how badly she wanted to drink which made me sad considering she had just given birth. I was amazed that she could walk right after giving birth and mentioned it to her. She also wanted for us to hang out that night but I lied and told her we had plans, that we'll hang out the following day because she was to stay in the hospital room for three days. I dont remember anything else after that.
In my secondary dream I met a lion tamer, she had dark short hair and had a beautiful HUGE lion which she had tamed since he was a baby. They did a couple of tricks and I believe my bosses were there too; aside from Linda and other people I cant really recall. At one point the lion tamer puts her head in the lion's mouth completely in there for a couple of minutes. Then, she looks at me and she tells the lion to get in my mouth, the lion jumps in my mouth and stays in there. I remember being scared but also amazed that this huge lion could be inside my mouth. I remember feeling its claws in my tongue and throat and even feeling his mane which will tickle me at times. I also felt a cut but ignored it, he was in my mouth for a while and I began get nervous so, the lion tamer told the lion to come out and he did. I remember feeling him come out of my mouth. She then asked me if he bit me and I said I didnt know. She looked in my mouth and told me he did. I looked in my mouth on a mirror and there was a little blood in my tongue. I told her that maybe he scratched me by mistake and I told her how amazed I was that the lion was able to stay in my mouth smelling the blood and yet he did not hurt me. She then told me she knows which people to do this with, she chooses people with good/small auras aside from people with big auras, she said people with big auras made the lion uncomfortable. Then, she wrote down the prices she charges per show which was one thousand and something...it was a four digit figure, I told her we were going to gather the money together so we could see them again she then said that they are having a free show November 8th at Kendall Indian Hammock Park. I remember making sure which park she was talking about just to I could see them again for free.
I am going to read and study these dreams until I could come up with some sort of definition which I'm sure there's one. Til' next time.

Dream Incubation.

Without even knowing about dream incubation; I asked a question last night before going to bed. This is my question:

Should I try to develop my dreaming abilities? Is this my calling? Should I try to understand my subconcious better?